My Cheesy Love Note

I'm sitting at my desk
At the end of study hall
I can't stop thinking about you
I wonder what class you're in
The bell is about to ring
And my classmates are getting antsy
Maybe I'll see you in the hallway
Just to let you know
Your smile makes my day

Everything is in my head
But I don't exactly know what to say
So I'm sitting here at the end of class
Writing you a cheesy love note

My love,
You're amazing
And I can't get my head in the right place
I'm new
But I want to get to know you
So I sit here in study hall
Writing you this cheesy love note
How are you getting it?
Should I put anonymous?
My head is about to explode
But it's for you
This cheesy love note

You're pretty radical
I hope this song makes sense
Because I don't feel so musical
I'm gloomy and my head is full of thoughts
My hand is shaking
And my pencil keeps breaking
Just like my heart


My love,
You're amazing
And I can't get my head in the right place
I'm new
But I want to get to know you
So I sit here in study hall
Writing you this cheesy love note
How are you getting it?
Should I put anonymous?
My head is about to explode
But it's for you
This cheesy love note

Bended Love

I have no word
For how I feel
Words are cramming-
My heart is ticking
And my eyes are watery
Confusion!
It’s that every time
We have no chance
I fall for you
You fall for her
My heart blew a fuse
And every time you like me-
I want nothing to do with you
Don’t say it’s fully over
My feeling are numb
I can’t find a word for it
I’d say I’m probably dumb-
For even trying

Words are coming together
I like you sometimes
And can’t stand you half of it
But my feelings are deep
And I’ll tell you this just because
I call this bended love

11:11

you said,
make a wish on this certain time
so I looked up to the sky
and made up my mind
smiles for the stars
as I put my hands on my heart
I gave it a long hard thought
and wished for it with all I got

I whispered to God
in my head
for just a sign-
of love
because as I wished on the time
that's exactly what I asked for

11:11 PM,
I wished again
but this time its not pretend
God, give me a shout
I want Love out loud
true and pure
with nothing more
then trust and care
no lies among his perfect eyes
as I wished on the time

I Pray With Both Hands

i feel so rude,
so flustered
so claustrophobic of my problems
hoping that believing,
it will help me see
believing that He died for me
I'll pray to Him
with both of my hands
raised in the air
my head is bowed
while there is nobody or everybody around

"Father? I love You,
and i want to renew:
My faith,
My belief,
My concentrations on You.
i have a lot going through my mind
i hope to have forgiveness
and to start over again
because i've complained
and worried with more words said
so, i love You and please forgive me,
Father, I am blind... Can you help me see?"

I pray with both hands
raised up to Him
my eyes leak of water
as I rethink my sins
Im in need of strength
I am so weak
I am praying that my days go better
With Him standing over me

So, i pray with both hands

Your Four Letter Lies

you got me ready,
ready to fall
with your slick plan
to trap me
and break us piece by piece

you repeated lines to me
just as you did to every girl
and how you needed me
how i was your world

you lied and said you loved me
and said you wouldnt leave me,
that honesty was our key
and nobody would get in the way
but look at how much pain,
pain you caused me

your believable eyes,
your four letter lies,
and making me cry
holding my hand
then hurting my heart
im so glad we're apart
from your four letter lies

The Crumbled Up Paper

has she ever for a second
lost the thought of love?
she wanted him forever
but was afraid to say what she thinks of
She wrote her words out
then threw them away
because she wanted him to stay
but only if he wanted
and she was so weak of her mistakes

she wonders if he knows
that every word she wrote,
she'll shed a tear
and she’s sick of herself
why? she won’t look in the mirror

red ink on the paper
as he picked up the crumble
as he looked down to read her writing

'I miss the way you talked to me on the phone
the way you treated me when we were all alone
nothings changed much but you seem careless sometimes
and why cant we just talk about it?
but you wont
I get tired of waiting here
hoping for something to make us stronger
I'm not leaving but I thought you should know
I miss talking to you alone'

he looked away from the paper
all crumbled up and stained of ink
she came in the room
and wish she weren't even there
confusion stirred in the air

summer

my heart drops
thinking of how he said
"i love you lots!"
and how i miss the feeling
of holding his hand
of kissing his cheak
we lasted quite a time
and he was the first person
on my mind
then we fell apart
wishing we had the same feeling
that God would come,
and do some healing
its such a bummer,
i miss the summer

Difficult Disappointment

I remember,
You and I
We played together
So long ago,
so long ago
You answered no
To the questions of alcohol,
To the questions of sex
But now the answer is yes

So, I'm sitting here wondering,
Writing…
What comes next?

You went against what you said
I’m wondering, writing
What's going through my head
My heart breaks
Every time I hear more news
I think thoughts like
“this is so unlike you”

I don’t know how to say this
But you’re a difficult disappointment

Forever, ForNEVER

We met in may
I so remember the day
You locked eyes with me

We thought a lot alike
And we said we just might
Give it a try
To see why..
People say
Love is in may

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lies
Just all those butterflies
Then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
fornever

I remember when I kissed you
It was a sunny day in June
I remember it all
And I remember when I began to fall

The end of July
And I started to realize
we were meant to be
No fights would break us
Everything will be alright
You just wait and see

Then august came
it just wasn't the same
And I knew his mind wasn't on me
I could see
I could feel
The vibe of awkward silence

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lie
Just all those butterflies
Then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
Fornever

I started freaking out
Wondering what to do out loud
I don't regret my mistakes
And I hope he doesn't hate me
Forever

September came and we were fine
Birthday kisses
Shopping lines
He held
My hand
And told me he would stand
By me
Through everything

October was the romance
I fancied dancing with him all night
He sneaked a kiss on my lips
I remember those lips
And his hands on my hips
Whispering sweets in my ear
I loved to hear

My body gave out
Two weeks later
Tears were coming out
Having feelings change
Why can't it be a different day?

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lie
Just all those butterflies
then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
Fornever

Forever?
So we thought.
And we made mistakes
With stupid lies and telling me it's fine
You'll be alright

And we turned into forever,
Fornever
I'm okay with this.
Yes, I'll miss.
Every memory we had
Too bad it's gone
Forever,
Fornever