My Cheesy Love Note

I'm sitting at my desk
At the end of study hall
I can't stop thinking about you
I wonder what class you're in
The bell is about to ring
And my classmates are getting antsy
Maybe I'll see you in the hallway
Just to let you know
Your smile makes my day

Everything is in my head
But I don't exactly know what to say
So I'm sitting here at the end of class
Writing you a cheesy love note

My love,
You're amazing
And I can't get my head in the right place
I'm new
But I want to get to know you
So I sit here in study hall
Writing you this cheesy love note
How are you getting it?
Should I put anonymous?
My head is about to explode
But it's for you
This cheesy love note

You're pretty radical
I hope this song makes sense
Because I don't feel so musical
I'm gloomy and my head is full of thoughts
My hand is shaking
And my pencil keeps breaking
Just like my heart


My love,
You're amazing
And I can't get my head in the right place
I'm new
But I want to get to know you
So I sit here in study hall
Writing you this cheesy love note
How are you getting it?
Should I put anonymous?
My head is about to explode
But it's for you
This cheesy love note

Bended Love

I have no word
For how I feel
Words are cramming-
My heart is ticking
And my eyes are watery
Confusion!
It’s that every time
We have no chance
I fall for you
You fall for her
My heart blew a fuse
And every time you like me-
I want nothing to do with you
Don’t say it’s fully over
My feeling are numb
I can’t find a word for it
I’d say I’m probably dumb-
For even trying

Words are coming together
I like you sometimes
And can’t stand you half of it
But my feelings are deep
And I’ll tell you this just because
I call this bended love

11:11

you said,
make a wish on this certain time
so I looked up to the sky
and made up my mind
smiles for the stars
as I put my hands on my heart
I gave it a long hard thought
and wished for it with all I got

I whispered to God
in my head
for just a sign-
of love
because as I wished on the time
that's exactly what I asked for

11:11 PM,
I wished again
but this time its not pretend
God, give me a shout
I want Love out loud
true and pure
with nothing more
then trust and care
no lies among his perfect eyes
as I wished on the time

I Pray With Both Hands

i feel so rude,
so flustered
so claustrophobic of my problems
hoping that believing,
it will help me see
believing that He died for me
I'll pray to Him
with both of my hands
raised in the air
my head is bowed
while there is nobody or everybody around

"Father? I love You,
and i want to renew:
My faith,
My belief,
My concentrations on You.
i have a lot going through my mind
i hope to have forgiveness
and to start over again
because i've complained
and worried with more words said
so, i love You and please forgive me,
Father, I am blind... Can you help me see?"

I pray with both hands
raised up to Him
my eyes leak of water
as I rethink my sins
Im in need of strength
I am so weak
I am praying that my days go better
With Him standing over me

So, i pray with both hands

Your Four Letter Lies

you got me ready,
ready to fall
with your slick plan
to trap me
and break us piece by piece

you repeated lines to me
just as you did to every girl
and how you needed me
how i was your world

you lied and said you loved me
and said you wouldnt leave me,
that honesty was our key
and nobody would get in the way
but look at how much pain,
pain you caused me

your believable eyes,
your four letter lies,
and making me cry
holding my hand
then hurting my heart
im so glad we're apart
from your four letter lies

The Crumbled Up Paper

has she ever for a second
lost the thought of love?
she wanted him forever
but was afraid to say what she thinks of
She wrote her words out
then threw them away
because she wanted him to stay
but only if he wanted
and she was so weak of her mistakes

she wonders if he knows
that every word she wrote,
she'll shed a tear
and she’s sick of herself
why? she won’t look in the mirror

red ink on the paper
as he picked up the crumble
as he looked down to read her writing

'I miss the way you talked to me on the phone
the way you treated me when we were all alone
nothings changed much but you seem careless sometimes
and why cant we just talk about it?
but you wont
I get tired of waiting here
hoping for something to make us stronger
I'm not leaving but I thought you should know
I miss talking to you alone'

he looked away from the paper
all crumbled up and stained of ink
she came in the room
and wish she weren't even there
confusion stirred in the air

summer

my heart drops
thinking of how he said
"i love you lots!"
and how i miss the feeling
of holding his hand
of kissing his cheak
we lasted quite a time
and he was the first person
on my mind
then we fell apart
wishing we had the same feeling
that God would come,
and do some healing
its such a bummer,
i miss the summer

Difficult Disappointment

I remember,
You and I
We played together
So long ago,
so long ago
You answered no
To the questions of alcohol,
To the questions of sex
But now the answer is yes

So, I'm sitting here wondering,
Writing…
What comes next?

You went against what you said
I’m wondering, writing
What's going through my head
My heart breaks
Every time I hear more news
I think thoughts like
“this is so unlike you”

I don’t know how to say this
But you’re a difficult disappointment

Forever, ForNEVER

We met in may
I so remember the day
You locked eyes with me

We thought a lot alike
And we said we just might
Give it a try
To see why..
People say
Love is in may

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lies
Just all those butterflies
Then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
fornever

I remember when I kissed you
It was a sunny day in June
I remember it all
And I remember when I began to fall

The end of July
And I started to realize
we were meant to be
No fights would break us
Everything will be alright
You just wait and see

Then august came
it just wasn't the same
And I knew his mind wasn't on me
I could see
I could feel
The vibe of awkward silence

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lie
Just all those butterflies
Then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
Fornever

I started freaking out
Wondering what to do out loud
I don't regret my mistakes
And I hope he doesn't hate me
Forever

September came and we were fine
Birthday kisses
Shopping lines
He held
My hand
And told me he would stand
By me
Through everything

October was the romance
I fancied dancing with him all night
He sneaked a kiss on my lips
I remember those lips
And his hands on my hips
Whispering sweets in my ear
I loved to hear

My body gave out
Two weeks later
Tears were coming out
Having feelings change
Why can't it be a different day?

And we said it would be forever
We'd live happily ever after
So successful
So in love
Everything was high
In hopes and there's no lie
Just all those butterflies
then we came to an end
And that's when
We turned into forever,
Fornever

Forever?
So we thought.
And we made mistakes
With stupid lies and telling me it's fine
You'll be alright

And we turned into forever,
Fornever
I'm okay with this.
Yes, I'll miss.
Every memory we had
Too bad it's gone
Forever,
Fornever

"This Song About You"

I'm writing about the scenery
with the butterflies
and beautiful skies
strumming my guitar for hours
and singing notes
trying to stay on tune
just the way I use to
and that's before I met you

makin my way around the halls at school
I know if I could strum my guitar
I wouldn't get bored
singing all night
about the little things in life

and I-
write songs about you
even though it-
makes me crazy
just to hear your voice read
and I could-
sit here all day long
just waiting-
waiting for you to notice me

its the artwork of God
that makes me happy
and the couples in love
that make me write all day
ill hide my pain
and have one last sound check
but I'm not the only girl
that feels this way

and I-
write songs about you
even though it-
makes me crazy
just to hear your voice read
and I could-
sit here all day long
just waiting-
waiting for you to notice me

smelling the colored flower
dancing around my bedroom
just because you smiled my way,
it made my day
listening to my music
writing a new song
and thinking about tomorrow all day long

as I write this song about you
ill smile for the crowd
just one last song
ill let you pick me up
and throw me down
as I strum my guitar
singing on tune
writing this song about you

"Smiles For Love"

Colored flowers all around
As he picked me up
Off the ground
He knew I’ve been through so much pain
And when he told me id be okay
I smiled and looked at the sky
I knew he was the right guy
Smiles for love
As he holds me tight
Thinking we might
Just last forever
I smile just because
But yet there's always a reason
One reason only for smiling….

Smiles for love
Because for once its final,
And I'm not in denial
I know its strong
I've known its true
That when he said
“I love you”
I smiled,
And knew it wasn’t just
For that stupid while

Smiles for love

"why?"

ill write about
the smiles and frowns you bring me upon me
about how your fine one moment
and furious the next
about exactly what's on my mind
and knowing it'll break hearts
and make tears
but confusion destroyed me
sometimes I wonder why life is so hard
why people judge by the color of skin or by what you wear
why best friends move away
why some people cant take a joke
and why humans make stupid actions for attention
why people smoke
why alcohol still legal
even when it kills so many people
why teens abuse sex;
why cant they just wait?
why love is so hard to find
and friends are so hard to keep
why kids skip school
and why parents beat...

I wonder about everything that goes on in the world,
why everything happens.
does it really happen for a reason?
or am I just in a nightmare....

"She Danced"

looking up to the stars
with her brown eyes,
worried with no doubt
as she gave him her heart
she walked calmly,
through the night city,
the ghost town was dark
with street lights dimmed
her layered hair, blew in the wind
and you can hear her earphones
with the rock tune
she smiled-
at the moon
her perfect smile;
none others like hers
lit up the ghost, dark town
and the rest of the earth
she was falling, falling tonight
knowing there weren't going to be goodbyes
she looked in his blue eyes,
and smiled
with her imperfection
as he stopped her pace
and turned her so they were
face-to-face
he whispered "I love you"
and she danced,
danced like she was on that moon

"My Silent Callings"

Kill this silent music
Stop from breaking down
Just look up at Him
Without making a sound
Ask if everything is okay
Please just say,
Say the words

“everything is beautiful”

Fly me away-
Away to a far land
A fantasy world
With no worries
And just smiles

“God, I love him..”
I know,
Let’s hope he never goes..

“his loud fallings,
My silent callings”

What are you saying?

"Butterflies"

its almost month four
and I couldn't love
anyone more-
than you
I'm so sure its you

laying in bed at 1 AM
waiting away
so I can start this day
the hours past
way too slow
how can I show you..
the feeling I get
right before you come to see me

flying around my entire body
its the feeling I get
every time you text me

walking down the hall way
you relieve my pain
with your smile, with your voice
the night wont pass by
and I've got these butterflies

"Words of Fate"

I've spent so much time on this page
walking down the main street
just thinking about the past
and how it will last
it will stay
somewhere worth the wait

I cant let this feeling go
that I felt so long ago
I feel so far apart
away from myself
away from the world
I don't feel like a pretty girl
and I want a big dream
and I want to scream
the words I love you in his face
I'm writing notes of fate

my stomach has worn down
that saddened girl is wearing a frown
she's out of tears to cry
and that’s when I realized
his eyes weren't on her anymore

I'm writing words on this crinkled sheet
thinking of what really happened to me
just waiting for life
and taking one last flight
over the world

I cant let this feeling go
that I felt so long ago
I feel so far apart
away from myself
away from the world
I don't feel like a pretty girl
and I want a big dream
and I want to scream
the words I love you in his face
I'm writing notes of fate

"Maybe She's Just a Wreck"

Listening to music
Writing in the dark
She's so insecure of herself
She's crying out for help

Rethinking her regrets
Maybe she's just a wreck

There's no tears
Just these stupid worries
Haunting like sounds going through her ears
He doesn't say more than enough
And that's why she puts it on herself
So rough

Wishing she was on the moon
And everything was lighter than light
She's trying not to cry
Trying with all her might

She's so negative
The glass is always half empty
With acids just ready for drinking
She hurts her own heart
And she pleads she'll never be apart
From you
(From you)

Rethinking all those thoughts
(she's a wreck)
Regretting all those mistakes
(never again regret)
And putting too much into her words
Tape her mouth shut
So nothing comes out

Retracing her regrets
Maybe she's just a wreck

"Be Who You Are" --newest poem!

He's still thinking
What if?
What if she died?
What if I cried?
And given up on life?
Then i tell him one thing;
He might,
He just might wanna think to himself

'Be who you are
It'll get you so far,
So far in life
Everything that was tight
Will stretch out,
And be just right'

He never knows what to do
And has no love,
He keeps forgetting
What he's made of

He's just thinking
What if?
What if I wasnt the way i am?
And what if I cant do what you can?
What if ive made mistakes?
And had the feeling of hate?

'Be who you are
It'll get you so far,
So far in life
Everything that was tight
Will stretch out,
And be just right'

Be who you are